End of year activities and summer vacation is what happened!!
I am sad to report that I did not make my June 1st goal of 215. I have however managed to keep all weight off in the last 6 week and I am now ready to pick up where I left off.
6/29 Weigh in – 218 lbs TWL -22.8lbs
My plan was to start back at the gym again yesterday but with the funk that I was in, I just did not make it. Instead, I drove around for a little over 3 hours looking at houses (alone!) and felt like having an anxiety attack. With the amount of money I have to work with, I am afraid I am going to end up living in the hood. I am not in a huge rush to move out but I am ready to have my own space again. I have been living here for 5 months and I want to have everything done and moved by december. So after my pointless driving around I came home, emailed some, looked at my houses online, napped, and went to the chiropractor to help me with the horrible stress headache I had.
My problem here is that I can do alot but something of this size and seriousness intimidates me. Its a process i have never done before with rules and catches that I have no clue about. I am doing it alone with moral support from my parents and sister but overall, its all on my shoulders. No husband or Bf to do it with me. Its completely my decision and I just don’t want to settle. I settled on my apartment I lived in before b/c I wanted to be out on my own. I can not settle this time but I have preset ideas in my head about where I certainly DO NOT want to live and aspects of the home I must have (like it must have 2 bathrooms). Would I love to move into central park into a little villa just the right size for starting a family with a great park, stores and highways accessible – Hell yeah. can I afford that…. Not even close. but I have to keep reminding myself thats its my starter home… it’s going to be OK if its in the hood. Where can I get a good rate on bars for the windows anyway?
Hrm, how did I get from my weight loss to that rant!?!?!? I must get going to the gym before I lose my push again today and let my worries and stresses get the best of me.
GOALS:
July’s Goal: July 28th weigh in = 208
Back to School Goal: August 17 weigh in = 200
